The Cave Experience

I have been having a "cave experience" during the past couple of years. I didn't even realize it for a while. After all, during this time I have continued to be a single Mom, a Nurse practitioner working full time juggling chemo and medical treatments....nonetheless I reside in a cave....I find I can't even begin to tell my friends all that happens here, some of it is so precious there are not words, literally, no words. Some of it is gut-wrenchingly painful, and again there are no words. Then there are days like today when the peace and grace of God so drenches me that I hope I never forget these moments, nor do I wish to be far from them...worship is precious here because it is heart to heart with Jesus...In this time I have found physical healing for an incurable disease. Healing for such grievous wounds I didn't know that I would ever be the same. I felt His love in such a palpable way I could only cry and lay prostate humbled completely by that knowing. I have felt such deep loneliness for like minded saints I thought my heart would break. Further, I have understood more acutely I am an alien in a foreign land. I have learned to completely empty myself out of every preconceived notion of what my life was to be, opening it up to whatever it is He calls me to...I love it that He loves me enough to heal me, guide me, and commune with me in this way...it is a privilege....

I have to wonder...What did Moses learn in the desert after he murdered and fled Egypt? What did Elijah learn in the cave as he hid from Jezebel? What did David learn as he fled from Saul all those years? What did Paul learn after the Damascus road? What did Jesus learn in the desert? Cave experiences prepare us for something...I believe God endues us with knowledge, wisdom, and strength that will be needed for the coming years or for a life call... Preparation sometimes is difficult, but no one can prepare us better than the Creator to help us find our lives we are willing to lose...I believe the Word and one of the most significant things I think Christ ever said in the Bible is in John...

John 14:12 "I assure you: The one who believes in Me will also do the works that I do. And he will do even greater works than these, because I am going to the Father.

How are we going to find out what those greater works are unless we have spent some personal intimate time with him. I encourage everyone to first believe Him, and second, find Him....set your entire being to believing in Him and in the work he has called you to...God speed to all of us on this journey to this world we are aliens to...




Acts 17:27 He has done this so that they would look for God, somehow reach for him, and find him. In fact, he is never far from any one of us.